k d0ng .. really d0nt wanna sae anitink ..
really am tired ..
n i just came bck at
1:28 AM
hahaks ..
s0wie anwar ..
at least it wasnt det late ..
kk ..

chats .. t0m0low ..
=)



siGn 0uTzzz.

Lyfe ..
It really did ended .
And it left me here .

It's n0t b0ut havin n0 frens c0x i've plenty ..
It's n0t b0ut n0t havin a bf c0x i d0nt tink i currently nid 1 n0w ..

It's just b0ut where my family has g0ne 2 ..
And b0ut where has he g0ne to ..
They just left me ..
Here ..
Al0ne ..

I n0e tt lyfe is very valuable n preci0us ..
But i w0nt regret if i l0se it ..
And 4 sure, i w0nt b l0okin bck ..

L0ve ??
hah .
i d0nt tink i 0wn it n0w ..
im juSt a sick gal ..
Im just standing al0ne in de darkness ..
the darkness tt cant be only 0verc0med by me, al0ne .

yes, i nid t0 speak 0ut ..
i n0e that ..
BUT WHAT !!

Yes, Anwar .. it's n0t wr0ng t0 change gals ..
but think bck ..
U just w0nt understand ..
i d0nt even think ani0ne will ..

I d0nt want any charms !!
I just kip bleeding 0f l0v ..
n0 0ne except f0r hyme understands me de best ..
if ani0ne is willing t0 trade lyfes wit me ..
i'll sign de c0ntract seyY !!
N0 0ne realise h0w hard it is 4 me
0r
H0w deeply i've been hurt

IT'S JUST T0O MUCH 4 ME !!

I just can't take it anim0re ..
i tink im givin up s0on ...


siGn 0uTzzz..

im s0 s0wie t0 Anwar n u t0o ..
c0x cant sae det much ..
i hav 7 art assignments to do in a dae !!
CaN u blive tt !!

kk .. paper je larr ..
i really g0t t0 run n0w ..
haiiSh ..



siGn 0uTzzz.

i really cant c0nsentrate in class 2dae ..
i wasnt tinkin b0ut hyme ..
i was in pain .. al0ne . =(

juSt g0t det n it really hurts ..
hav my m0od swings ..
im s0wie t0 all i've d0ne 2dae ..
t0 all my fwens t0o ..

had de Step-Up ..
we played a teamw0rk game ..
kesian Lina ..
she was de 0ne tat's g0wiin t0 b blind ..
den i saw poc0ng ciner .. haha ..
aft det i saw p0cong mly .. he fall 0ff de seat ..
hehe =)

had C.O 2dae ..
i really wasnt in de m0od 2 d0 anitiNk ..
suddenly i did s0mething weirD .
i went t0 msG hyme ..
sayin 'Thx'
den he replied ..
i t0t he c0uldnt reply me .. as he saed he cant

i was really askiN stupid questi0ns ..
i didnt n0e y t0o ..
but i guess ..
i really d0nt wan hyme t0 giv me t0o much h0pe ..
it's 0k t0 giv me h0pes in Life ..
but givin me h0pes det cant b achieved ..
is lettin me keeP tinKin b0ut it ..
n it will n0t happen t0 b in det wae ..

c0x i n0e y ..
n im nt lettin it slip 0ut thr0ugh dis bl0g ..

it's been c0nfirmed !
yah0o !!
de japanese gal will live wit me ..
hehe
beSt nyerr ..
at least i w0nt be tat l0nely n0w ..
at least wen he g0es ive s0me0ne t0 talk t0 at h0me ..
at least dets de best i can d0 wen thinGs r diff n0w ..

all i wan t0 sae is .. ' Im s0wie, Anwar. '



siGn 0uTzzz.

i've de sense 0f sensing hymE ..
OMG
im g0wiin crazy .. =)

at det m0ment i felt det der was g0wiin 2
be s0me0ne 0utside ..
den he came .

tyMe ..
it's s0 fast ..
Maths ..
daMn fast sia !
had 2 peri0ds 0f maths ..
det means an h0ur 0f it ..
i c0uldnt c0nsentrate well ..
keepS tinkin b0ut 0ther stupid stuffs ..

kk .. bck t0 de t0pic .
Well .. i t0t 0nly 15 mins has past,
but den it was 45 mins past
n it will end in de next 15 mins ..

Tyme just past by s0o fast
wen ure tinKin b0ut s0me0ne ..

aft sk0ol 2dae ..
de japanese gal came t0 my h0use
n saw my r0om ..she saes det she lykes
b0th my r0om n h0use ..
der's n0think i lyke here ..

hmmm ..
she saed she's g0nna ask her m0m's 0pini0n first ..
it's 0k .
she can take her tyme ..

am really tired here n really wants t0 g0 f0r a
SLEEP ..
nitex .. =)


siGn 0uTzzz.

he cnt msg me anim0re !!
nightmare !!
tis is g0in t0 be a nightmare !!
but he sae tt he'll msg me next m0nth ..
nvm
i'll wait f0r him ..
but every sec with0ut hyme ..
is ..
l0nely n unbearable .

i really d0nt understand y ..
i just t0ld hyme tt wen havin a cl0sest fwen
wen bein al0ne
might get u 2 be addicted t0 dem ..

i d0nn0e seyY ..
=)
inn0cent ..

ive al0t 0f pr0bs 2dae ..
i really wanted a fwen ..
but he wasnt der 4 me 2dae ..
n t0mol0w
n de dae aft nxt ..
until next month ..

haiiSh ..
im s0 s0wie t0 my m0m ..
she helped me d0 my art ..
but i stress ..
den i d0n0e ar ..
i just g0 n vandalise it ..
=(

im s0 ank sial !
mayb im really a jinx aft all ..
i feel so useless .. so n0t needed 0n dis earth ..
=(

in de first place wh0 ask my F* dad to hav dis F* child !
im so sway ..
it really sux ..

just remembered s0metin !!
he said tt he dreamt b0ut me last nite ..
n i t0o had a dream b0ut hyme .. last nite t0o ..
c0ol nyerr !!
0ur s0uls met each 0ther last nite ..
hehe
but he w0uld tell me wat de dream is ab0ut ..
guess i w0nt t0o ..
s0methink actually happened ..
n its nt wat 0ther expected ..

im so stressed-up ..
i nid t0 play s0 many r0les ..

My R0les .. :
~ A Granddaughter ~ A Step-Granddaughter
~ A Niece ~ A Step-Daughter
~ A Daughter ~ A Sister
~ A Student ~ A Friend
~ A Close Friend ~ A Special Friend
~ A Lover( s00n en0ugh )

And Imp0rTantLy ..

MYSELF ...


siGn 0uTzzz.

im so tired .
AESTHETIC NIGHT
went g0od !! or rather well !!!

went to republic poly wif yana n ikin .
=)
Rehearsal was der to make us feel tired .
well si t0mb0i keep askin the mc's to talk 0ver agn n agn
po0r ting ..
im inn0cent .. =p

da lar tiring ..
lunch .. umm ..
n0 c0mments ..
hehe ..
learn nt t0 b cerewet ..
but i really d0nt eat vege ..

suddenly, 0ut 0f the c0rner 0f my eye ..
i saw hyme ..
hears the thumping of his b0ots 0n the carpeted fl0or ..
thumping n thumping ..
appr0achin me ..

haha .. lyke suspense story lak ..
hehe
k lar ...
i was runnin t0wards my seni0r skali !!
dier dtg !
haiy0 ..
wr0ng timing !!
i already had my make up on .
n t0tally ..
n0t fabulloso ..
its sacre bleu !! ( french words used . hehe . it means fabulous n OMG . )

n guess wat !
miss thia sang !!!!!!!!
haha ..
actually her v0ice o.k but tkleh tarik ..
kesian seyy ..
kena nyayik lagu breakin free plak tu ..
mr justin sang t0o .. he's s0 cute ..
he sang subahanallah ...
syafiqah didnt n0e det he's islam ..
he's lyke me ..

mrs heikal !! R0X =)
at de end 0f de dae .. s0o pnt !!
msgin wit Anwar ..
sampai k0l 2
n0w waitin f0r his eply ..
tapi tk dpt2 agik ..
mungkin da tid0 k0t ..
tkper lar ..
me 0s0 wanna g0 n0w ..
buhbye ..


siGn 0uTzzz.

this is wat haPpened 2dae ..
AMALINA !!
nvr g0 t0 sk0ol !!
i al0ne seyZ .

si CT plak !!
haiy0 !!
she s0o de ' itik gemb0l2 , ayam terkenet2 '
haha .
i dun care if she reads my bl0g !
lantak arr !

0ops .
i sh0uldnt hav enemies ..
muSt 4ll0w wat Anwar saYs .
=) innocent .

my hair .. tied up in a new fashi0n ..
i lup it wen he l0oks at me ..
i lup it wen he smiles ..
it makes me feEl tt im a special within myself
makes me feEl tat im appreciated
feEls tt de eyes are 0n me alwaes ..

im g0wiin CRAZY ..
haiiSh ..
yay !!
mayb de japanese is g0nna live wit me ,
in my h0use ,
in my rm ,
sleepin n d0in stuff wit me ..

YAHO0 !!

hehe .. =p

i s0o damn happY sia !
canT wait if itS truE ..

im s0wie Anwar ..
i was t0tally nt tinkin b0ut ur feelings .
pliiSh ??

k .. d0ng ..
~ Aiing
hehe .. happy gilerr

currently seatin bside Amalina now ..
she kip sayin ' aduhai ' seyy
ADUHAI ..

yep2 ..
2dea .. W0W !!

s0wie .. if its t0o l0ng , amalina. .
=)

okie d0kie .. buhbye .


siGn 0uTzzz.

Labels: iTs 0nly a maTter 0f tymE

reached Sk0ol happily ..
hehe .
w0re my new watch ..
=)

0ops ..
4g0t t0 bring my D&T file ..
n was askEd to sketch 0ut my idea ..
n mine ..
was
C0OLIssIm0 !! ( french w0rd .. learnt fr0m a storyb0ok .. =) )

everytink went 0ut
GREAT !!

haha .
g0t my japanese fwen's no.
while dens0n didnt even g0t it ..
Dens0n is Chinese while im a Malay Eurasian .. part of mly .
n det gal t0tally understands chi ..

haha .
wen dens0n talks t0 her ,
she d0ent understand hyme ..
but wen i talk t0 her ..
w0w !
she t0tally understand wat i mean ..
n i c0ol tink .
she invited me to her h0use ..
in JAPAN !!
yay !

hav de chance t0 play wit her d0g .. =)
i mean .. w0w ..
me g0in JAPAN ?!?
i'll b damn crazy !!
hehe .

rehearsal went great just n0w ..
xcept det de conduct0r made a mistake .
it's 0k b0ut det ..

0ops ..
really gtg n0w ..
tc .


siGn 0uTzzz.

tis is t0tally wat happened ..
late 4 sk0ol ..
WalkEd as fast as i c0uld ..
ReAched sk0ol ..
peSpiriNg ..
w000oohh ..

s0o pnt ..
suddeNly he taLked uSin i .. u .. i .. u .. n0t .. kau .. aku .. kau .. aku
i realLy th0ught he lieD ..
but he gav a reas0naBle reas0n ..

Reas0n accpted ! =)
seri0usly ..
i hate beIn cheateD 0n .

haiy-0 !!
s0 pnt seyy ...
k d0ng .


siGn 0uTzzz.

haiish !!
im damn tired !
d0nt even n0e wat t0 type .

just n0w hav chinese basic conversati0nal class ..
s0o b0wiin ..
c0x we made s0 much 0f n0ises ..
haha ..

fun jugak arr ..
haiy0 !!
i write in bl0g 0s0 n0 0ne n0es seyy ..
xcept f0r Anwar n Lina ..

Now ..
im currently leaning 0n my chair ..
tinkin wat t0 sae ..

haha ..
went for a l0ng 1 h0ur break juz n0w ..
get bck t0 ya ltr


siGn 0uTzzz .

i didnt noe wat really happened ..
todae was just s0o ..
EMBARRASSING !!

arr !!
first, durin P.E ..
i totally just freaked 0ut ..
must run interval ..
n de cher gav 2.30 mins for a round ..
n de timing passed by s0o det FAST ..

i was runnin n runnin ..
lamak .. suddenly got class 2E4
haiy0!!
GEREBAK !!

I ALM0ST FALL D0WN ..
haha !! =) x(

in fr0nt of him plak tu
haha

den ltr durin step-up pr0gramme ..
fun arr ..
den interestin 0s0 .
g0t free sh0w seyy ..
hah !
s0meb0dy f0ught ..
usin vulgarities ..
but it was s0 c0ol ..

hehe ..
suker jerr fatin .
den the 'instructer' or 'c0ach'
i donoe arr.
she saed she wanna talk wif me n lina .
n det was s0 .. wen i g0t s0o em0tional ..
i t0tally cried in fr0nt 0f her ..

Lina couldnt blieve .
luckily g0t tissue seyy ,,
haha ..
but i was relieve aft talkin to her 4 a while ..

juSts0UnbelievablE .. !!


siGn 0uTzzz .

haiish !!
nyer lar bowiin ...
i t0t i c0me bck h0me early, FUN ..
but it s0o b0wiin
haiy0!!

Wat u d0in huh ?!?
haha..
lyke i chattin lyke det ..
hmm ..
no 0ne n0es me s0 i 0nly hav fwen
s0o sad . =(

weng ..
ngah eatin gule2 grape ..
yUm Yum YuMMy !! :p
hahaxSssss ...

h0w can guys msg wen they're playin a sp0rt ??
cam weird gitu ..

s0wiie .. im tryin to talk eng 0nly ..
but as u noe ..
my mly d0es run thr0ugh fingers ..
i d0nt even n0e wat d0es tt mean ..
i just sae 0nly ..

Sk0ol ??
umm...
let me tink ..
it's c0ol !!
g0t 19 1/2 for my ge0g test .. !!
yah0o !!
my class is fabulloso ...

2E2 is de best in ge0g ..
overall 100% passes ..
0nly 1 0r tw0 ppl get A2 ..
N just my luck ,
i g0t A1 ...
haha ..

suke seyy ... =)
i t0t 2dae hav chinese class ..
but d0nt hav ..
cher said 0n wed ..
HaiisH ..

if g0t chinese class ..
2E2 join wif 2E4 ..
c0ol kn ..
hehe

BuhbYe ..
text ya ltr ..
mcm pe jerr ..
=)


siGn 0uTzzz ..

ps: Miss Lam is not buyers ..
If her form class, 2E2,
Gets best in geog for wh0le lvl,
Det really doesnt mean tt she's buyers
We just study hard,
S0 that we d0nt hav t0 write d0wn
De whole textbook

thx 4 ur co-operation

Currently reportin live from home ..
Seatin bside my adk ..
Scary sia ..
she got high fever still wanna seat bside me
Haiy0 !!

Ask her t0 sleep, she sae cnt sleep ..
haahaa ..
0s0 msg-in Anwar n0w ..
Respect hyme l0ts ..
Diff den 0ther guys ive met b4

but the pr0b is ,
we d0nt talk t0 each 0ther ..
haha
funnie rite .
we 0nly msg 0ne an0ther

Hah! hav 1 msg fr0m hyme n0w .. (3.58 pm)
k .
wen we see each 0ther in sk0ol
u n0e ..
it feels weird ..
lyke we're tw0 diff strangers ..

N u wanna n0e s0metink ..
he just stood for h0w many l0ng secs
until i turn t0 hyme
just t0 ..

SMILE !

haha..
the brightest smile ive ever seen ..
s0 cute ..
so switt larr ..

i bet ani0ne tt is wit hyme n0w ..
w0uld really b the luckiest gal .. (to Anwar tats readin tis: tmo kembang ehk .. hheehhee)

gtg n0w .. buhbye !!


sign 0utzz ...

heyy .. sowiie 4 nt getting bck yesterdae ..
bz arr .
k let's now just talk bout todae ..
TIRING DAE !!
N0 breaks .. actually aderr ar .
tapi 5 mins jerr .
igt ckp ke perr ..
i dun tink s0o .. but it was FUN t0o ..
abeh saw s0me0ne so0 charac. seyy ..
ask hyme a quest, but he nvr eply bck ..
jeling plak tu ..

Aft rehearsal .. i g0 mkn at l0ng j0hn ..
kenyang seyY ..
JumPe Lina kat lib
den trus alik wif her ..

He's t0tally diff den wat i t0t 0r expected ..
Nt a hyp0crite ..
DefinitelY ..

kk ..
gtg now ..


just0oc0mplicated ... =)

This is totally wat just happened . As im aware tt tis is de first tyme im writin so i dont even noe ani format goin on in here . S0, if there's ani probs wit it .. TELL K !! =)
hehe .
kk . bck to de topic im talkin bout .
Just now in de mornin, totally, it suxs !! science is so damn bowiin .
k, i tink i understand wat i was taught in maths class . confirm !!
aft skewl, tats wen everytink started to go wrong !
i've got my sectin0l practice. n didnt noe tt there's a TEST !!
totally freaked 0ut in der ..
but luckilY, i've got the passin chop on my forehead .. weng :p
hhahha .. just meant tt i passed the test.
we all g0t t0 f0und 0ut tt we've g0tta use the C.O syf c0stume wit blck pants !!
can u blieve tt !! i said 'BLCK PANTS'
im g0nna b a t0tal idi0t if im g0nna really wear tt in skewl ..
i mean .. it suxs sia .
lamak .. !!
my adk want to play compt plak ..
kk ..
ltr i c0me bck ..
muacks ..



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