A thousand words couldn't bring you back,
I know because I've tried.
Neither could a thousand tears,
I know because I've cried.
You left behind a broken heart and happy memories too.
But I never wanted memories, I only wanted you.



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Love is a word no one can explain...
It comes and goes for me, it will never stay...
why cant true love come my way?...
I've tried so hard wishin' it would work out...
but in the end I dont know wut it was all about...
so i think from now on
I'm just gunna play it cool...
be good and set some rules...
being single aint that bad?!
but now i see that being single is just being sad.




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everyday i smile and act like nothing's wrong....
its called putting shit aside and being strong




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Some hearts are broken and mended.
Others are shattered or torn.
Although it was never intended because love is eternally sworn.
I have cried, prayed, and pleaded for that love to hold it’s ground.
Hope was all I needed and pain was all I found.



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I'm gonna smile like nothing is wrong
Talk like everything is perfect,
act like it's just a dream,
and pretend he's not hurting me ..



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I cant get mad at u
4 hurting me
over & over again
bcuz over & over again
i let you





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Do you ever lay in bed hoping that tomorrow you'll wake up in the emergency room & hear the words she's not going to make it? ... I do












i used to be normal.
young and happy.
now all i have is the broken image ..
of the girl i used to be.

IF I'M GIVEN A CHANCE TO KILL 5 PEOPLE,
THIS IS WHOM I WOULD DEFINITELY KILL ...
1. his GF
2. his GF
3. Myself
4. my Enemy
5. my Enemy

REASONS:
1 > she stole him from me .
2 > she made him go to her .
3 > ouh, it's obvious why .
4 > i hate her .
5> read the entry on Monday, 9 June .. & you'll noe y .

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well ,
i heard det she got scandal .
u told me det too .

but right now, CAN YOU PLEASE REPLY ME ?
im worried ..
SICK WORRIED !!
i dont noe wat is happening ..
*crying

reply me plz .
reply me plz .
reply me plz .
reply me plz .
reply me plz .
reply me plz .
reply me plz .
reply me plz .
reply me plz .
reply me plz .
reply me plz .

reply ,
reply,
reply,

I'M GOING NUTS !!

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PFFFFTT !!

well, at first wen i found out det TIKOS is goin on 13 june ..
my heart felt like it wants to EXPLODE !!!!
WTF ! TIKOS ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
den, dini tried to calm me down ..
well, i did cried .
ppl, WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND !

and what is tis ?
a fucking piece of shit ?!
she made me go lonely at first !
last year, 2007, the whole of the 1st semester .. tell me !
i had NO frens in de WHOLE entire CLASS !!
who did it ?!
well, it's u, TIKOS !!

den on the 2nd semester of de year ..
sha, fifa & yaya went to me .. and u oso ..
u came to me .. WHEN U HAD NO FRIENDS !
obviously sha , fifa & yaya had each other .. but they came to me first so det i wont be deceived by TIKOS.

well, i was friends wit u ..
cox i trusted u by ur SWEET TALKS .
now, i know who is my FRIEND ..

it's been a year since i hadnt been in good terms with u ..
SERVE U RIGHT.
let me say sumtink here. . .

""""""""" der's a time wen i was writing all my best friend's names on my file """"""""
when u asked ,
" name aku tkder "
i said ,
" huh ?! "
u replied ..
" oh, tkder pape "
i said ,
" bilerr mase kau ngan aku best of friends ? "
u said ,
" so selame ni, aku bkn best friend kau "


answer is NO .
i sympathize u sayang ..
too bad ..


see, im no bitch
im just a retard

=)





p.s : this isnt cyber bullying honey . this is called, letting out my feelings .
no harm done .
=)

BLUEK !

Name 20 people you can think of right now.Don't read the questions till you've named the 20 peoples.At the end of this choose 3 peeps to do this :]
1. Anwar
2. Amalina
3. Dini
4. Emma
5. Hidayah E3
6. Steven
7. Ruzaini B
8. Ruziani
9. Sharifah Maziah
10. Hidayah E2
11. My mum
12. My Dad
13. Nana
14. Firdaus B
15. Amir Abg
16. Afri Abg
17. Mama
18. Uncle Johnny ( my step-grandpa )
19. Doreen
20. Nyza
-How did you meet #14?
He's was introduced by my dad.
-What would you do if you hadn't met #1?
It wud be such a waste.
-What if #9 and #20 dated?
Les keperr ? #20 is taken by #1 .. but #9, u have me, #0
-What if #6th and #17th dated?
My fwen n my grandma ?! well, mayb =)
-Describe #3
DAINY !
-Is number #8 attractive?
Attractive to others mayb.
-Decribe #7
Very thoughtful, never gives up on me. GIVE UP ON ME !
-Do you know any of #12's family members?
He's my DAD ! of cuz i would noe ALL of his family members.
-What will you do if #18th confesses that he loves you?
AWWW. i lup u too grandpa.
-What language does #15 speak?
BAHASA melayu & english .
-Who is #9 going out with?
ME !
-How old is #16?
22 .
-When was the last time you spoke to #13?
1 sec ago.
-Who is the favourite singer/band of #2?
Ask her , =)
-Have you ever dated #4?
yerp, lots of tyme.
-Would you ever date #1?
is goin out together wit fwens counted as dating ? i dun tink s0.
-Is #19 single?
She's secretive .. psst, ask her LA !
-What's #10 last name?
Nur Hidayah Bte Jemin ? sorry if wrong.
-Would you ever be in a relationship with #11?
no, but i have relation wit her. MY MUM.
-What's the school of #3?
Woodgrove Secondary School. =)
-Where does #6 live?
Woodlands Ring Road, Dr 65 Blk 600+ .. nyahaha
-What's your favourite thing about #7?
He accompanies me.
-Have you ever seen #2 naked?
let me think .. she's shy.
3 PEEPS TO DO THIS :
Anwar, Amalina, Sharifah Maziah

wasn't reAdy !
so hardworking
nyahuhuhuhu
wtf. =X

currently sneaking
hehe =)
well, sum1 said sorry ..
doin a STUPID powerpoint !
tkderr org pon tlg ..
like WAT THE FUCK

i dono how im goin home later ,
guess i'll take a cab . to play safe .
emma is rite here bside me ...................

oh, ouhk !!!!
haiyo , cher is coming ..
i'll update later.
this is 4 now.

CONGRATS ON YOU AND NYZA !!!
thank you lotsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss .....

the relationship meant alot to me ......