Fatin!(:

yo peeps ! im back ..

2009-06-04T15:49:00.004+08:00

hey der.
long tyme no update.
thanks to ppl n republic poly laptop, n now im updating .
=)
lookin at kenny n fafa doin their BIG presentation at RP.
lyke duhh.
Lookin at Shidaaah Katak.
Hearin Doug laughin.
mr.Clive is sooo funny.

HMM.. sec 2 camp
FUN !
got to know dis sec 2 chi guy ,
lets giv hym a nickname.
Edward .. since he looks lyke a vampire.
his eyes r deep black.
i like his smile..
his voice .. aww
his laugh is the most best part
well , edward n me r msgin .
he broke up wit his gal ...
he said he wud lyk to noe more bout me ...
so .. we're kinda close
well, peeps, dont be suprised if i get close to hym aft the holidaes, in skewl .
=D
kay kay , stop bout edward .. lets talk bout the camp itself ..
it was GREAT !
kayaking was hell fun .. but my hands got real tired .
rock climbing was WOOHOO ..
i reached the top !!

heh . kay ...
mr.Clive is lookin at me..
mayb gtg soon .

ouh !!!
SATURDAY, NIGHT CYCLING !!
woohoo ... 7am-7pm
im gonna cycle cycle ..
im soooooo lookin forward to it !

peeps, i gtg .. i'll see if i'll update.
TATA !

2e2 OUTING !

2008-10-26T00:28:00.006+08:00

Today was Fun !
yeah ! that's what i'm talkin about !
yerp2 .. i saw douscar, yes i did =P
lol .. he's my boyfie ..
ppl say eew i say aww ..

had lots of fun ..
played with water bomb in the pool and got scolded by the security for unappropriate "costume"
hah .
but had alot of fun b4 det tho.
den went to sauna .
more fun ! drop 1 of my slippers in the #$@$@$ hole.
don't even noe y ders a #$@$@$ hole in it.
den , gina offered to lend me her slippers.
THANKS GINA ! <3>

then went to zi hao's house.
see de guys play rubics cube, triangular kinda cube, dota and some other games det i don wanna noe.
det chatted wit douscar.
den me n douscar went back to the bbq place.
So Sweet rite, he accompanied me.
den i gave hym a lecture bout sometink.
den we talk talk talk all the way.
Den realised det my hands was on his. =P
but hey, he's my boyfie mahh ..

den it's like all the way i with hym and joanne.
=)
today was great ! we ate an ice cream cake !

FAREWELL SURACH.
FAREWELL 2E2.
&
I'LL ALWAYS KEEP 2E2 AND YOU IN MY HEART.

saturday fever !

2008-10-25T21:24:00.003+08:00

OH man !
got a cough .
got a flu .
got a fever .
got a headache .

i really can't wait for tmrw !!
at last , im gonna meet ........... (personal) =)
hmph ...
okay, went to jalan raya wit my adk ..
aft 3 houses , we decided to treat ourselves with KFC WOW meals ! hah.
yea, did kinda rmbr how me n lina used to eat at kfc once every week ,
just missed det moment !

hmm .. currently playing runescape ..
yeah ! lvl 54 now ..
okay, let me stop here by sayin ..
I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT U LOVE ME .

arrrrgh !

2008-10-24T20:14:00.003+08:00

Woke up at 8.
And slept back,
Then woke up at 10.
And decided to not continue my sleep.

Darn !
Remembered that i had c.o.
So, since i love c.o so much, i decided to go. (sarcastic)
Anyway, it was just for 2 hours.

Reached school at 1.18pm.
So enthu to go to c.o.
Because i now i had alot of crap in store for my group. lol
So i dilly dally went to the Youth Centre.
Saw my SL.
And i said , "hey, yo ! watsup dude."
He knew i was gonna joke around so he said hello fatin.

Den bla bla bla bla bla.
**** coming out of his mouth.
HAH, had theory on bamboo flute.
Ways of blowing ..
Wadever ...

After fun time is over, i pampered myself with Chocolate Oreo Crunch Bubbletea.
hehe.

I'm so towards the last 2e2 gathering on this coming Sunday,261008. =)

sad .

2008-10-23T18:08:00.002+08:00

well , next year 2e2 will be seperating .
man, im just starting to love this class n the ppl in it .
But wat to do, it's no use of regretting .
last school excursion with 2e2 .
REALLY ENJOYED IT !
everyone with a smile on their face .
=)

hmm ... after Health Promotion Board, i didnt went to C.O
just too sickk to go .
den bla bla bla bla .
end of this story for 2e2 .

I'M GONNA MISS THE CRAPS, JOKES, SADNESS AND JOY FROM 2E2 ..

wow ! pressure ..

2008-09-26T21:09:00.004+08:00

wow ! it's been around a month since i posted anything on my blog ..
hmm.. 260908 , we're so over ..
and eng exam !!
Haiyo, I'm speechless about it i guess ?
both about de exam and today ..
but it's for the best, i tink ?

well , notink much happened except det Afifah's shoes is 1 size bigger than me !!
i can really kick that shoes off my feet and land on someone's head ..
haha, k, lame.
after Shidah, Jihan and Afifah went to the Singapore Sports School for their duty,
i waited outside 2E3 like an idiot ..
den realised that Siti Rauzanah was in 2E2 ..like wth ?

den we watched stupid videos , japanese prank, crazy stuff and some other "things"
hehe , no pornography involved ..
we're fasting babe , ok, onli me ..
she had her own probs tats y she couldn't fast ..
wow .. im typing a grandmother story ..
haha ..

now, i wanna shout out something ..
260908, WE'RE SOO OVER !! yipee ,,

thursday , my day ..

2008-08-28T21:21:00.002+08:00

wat happened today ? let's see ..

wednesday's entry =)

2008-08-27T20:35:00.008+08:00

time to eat !!

PREPARING MR. K'S TEACHER'S DAY PRESENT .. WAS VERY FUN !!

tuesday's pictures ..

2008-08-26T21:07:00.000+08:00

monday's the day !

2008-08-25T19:10:00.004+08:00

=) pictures ...

2008-08-24T15:39:00.000+08:00

SILAT COMPETITION DAY ...

pictures again , i guess ??

2008-08-22T19:18:00.001+08:00

In school with Joanne todayyy ...

Silat timee at night ... with baby Aash ...

hurt deeply

2008-08-22T14:33:00.005+08:00

If you don't care,

Don't bother writing ..

If it doesn't hurt you,

Det's when I hurt the most ..

This is just so common ..

I'm sure you've heard all this ..

And now, u hate me more ??

Do you ?

Well, I'm here, on Earth, just for a short while ..

So don't worry ..

I'll go soon ..

But, I must remind you ..

We will meet somehow ..

And you would not even remember the hatred ..

Between you and me ..

I'm sure of that ..

Like what you said ..

I could say that too ..

No origanality ?

Then that's nothing to do with me ..

I really thought we could last ..

But it didn't ..

Friendship ..

It ended just like that ..

Just Like That .....

Why ? Why now ?

Too annoying ?

That's me ..

You can't change who I am inside ..

Too sensitive ?

That's you ..

I can't change who you are inside ..

Am I right ?

I know,

I used that line too ..

And I didn't said anything ..

Because it's your mouth ..

Your lips saying it ..

I, Fatin, want to change that ??

I can't ..

I don't control you ..

And you don't control me ..

Am I right to say that ?

Then, Why ?

I've changed ..

And you can't see that ..

You're blinded ..

I am too ..

I'm blinded by your friendship ..

You are really nice ..

You are the ripe one .. The sweetest ..

Now ..

I'm speechless ..

You may expect me to speak ..

I can't ..

Would someone be that stupid to speak while they know they'll lose ?

Am I right to ask that ?

hmm .. pictures !

2008-08-19T21:45:00.000+08:00

After selling muffins .. the results ....

haha .. pictures ??

2008-08-18T21:33:00.006+08:00

MUFFINS !! $1 EACH !!

pictures n pictures !!

2008-08-14T20:10:00.003+08:00

hmm .. pictures again , i guess ??

day off

2008-08-11T01:04:00.001+08:00

A day off indeed ..

silat !!

2008-08-10T22:09:00.000+08:00

SILAT TYME ! BZ TAKIN PICS

pictures !

2008-08-09T20:44:00.000+08:00

ON 9 AUGUST 08 !

.... ?!??!??!??

2008-08-08T17:47:00.003+08:00

AND. AND. wana noe sumtink ?!
awwww .. i was sad lerr ..
but den i rmbr'ed y care for such a "person" rite ?
who did ever noe det it wud end to hatred ..
You want to say that u tried being fwens wit me ??
sorry la .. u didnt treat me as 1 *fullstop
sorry la .. im toooo retard for u *fullstop
sorry la .. im toooo nt ur type *fullstop

SORRY LA !!!!!!!!!!

btw .. an apology is still needed
and yehh , i dont give a D A M N bout wat u wrote in ur bookkssssss

awwwwwwwwww

2008-07-29T21:59:00.006+08:00

today just suxs ??

yea, it just SUCKS .

SOMEONE STILL OWE ME A FACE2FACE APOLOGY

=) =) =)

pictures ..

2008-07-26T22:14:00.004+08:00

im depressed !!

2008-07-20T13:44:00.005+08:00

i dont noe where to start ..
*speechless ..
oni anwar noes it all ..
im glad he was bhind me yesterday, to listen to all tat i had to say ..

de slut is goin to batam today .. to get married contract ,
and aft 3 months, she'll get divorced wit her contract husband ..
And den she will remarry my dad ..
WHAT FUCKIN SHIT IS THAT ?!

TO: ALLAH

Dear ALLAH,
U r whom i pray to, i worship to ..
U r whom i fear to, i love to ..
U r the Almighty God ..
I pray to you everityme i tink of my Mother ..
Ya Allah, im posting this post as a doa too ..
Allah, lead my father to the right path ..
Protect him from all the doings of my step-mom ..
Get det person out of my dad's house ..
She is not related to us anymore and You know det ..
Im not sure whether it's a make-up story ..
All i know is det i dont wanna c her face ..
Maybe der's a hikmah behind dis ..
Everitynk does ..
But my Mother is suffering too much ..
You see her cleaning the house, cooking for the family, washing de dishes, washing the clothes, sending my sisters to skool, goin to the market .. And many more ..
Wen i look at my Mother's face .. I see the wrinkles ..
She's tired and exhausted .. she wakes up at 4.30 every mornin .. she sleeps at 12 plus each day ..
WHY ?! In de end she's doin all the work and she's not getting any credits at de end of de day ..
I rela stay at home and suffer wit her den to hav her suffering alone ..
Why is my father in this condition ..
I know, he himself has done tis .. But wat should i do next ?
When i come to tink of my father, i hate him .. because of bringing me into this world n making my Mother feels like a maid .. She married him because of his children not love ..
What Anwar said was rite " she stayed bcox of children "
And she is doin rite now ..
Oh God, let tis end as soon as possible ..
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There is one person in life
Who will touch us forever,
One person in our life
That can hold us together.

Through childhood and growth,
Through good times and bad,
Only one person in life
Will remember all that we've had.

From laughing and crying,
From confessing and denying,
There was always one person
Who knew when we were lying.

To be strong and be true,
To care and to love,
One person taught us
All of the above.

Took us to school and took us to practice,
Took us to events and took us to plays,
There was one person who did this,I
n a single given day.

We recognize and thank you
For everything you do,
Yes, Mother, now you know...
That this only person is you.

Dedicated to my mother

poems ..

2008-06-11T19:45:00.005+08:00

A thousand words couldn't bring you back,
I know because I've tried.
Neither could a thousand tears,
I know because I've cried.
You left behind a broken heart and happy memories too.
But I never wanted memories, I only wanted you.

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Love is a word no one can explain...
It comes and goes for me, it will never stay...
why cant true love come my way?...
I've tried so hard wishin' it would work out...
but in the end I dont know wut it was all about...
so i think from now on
I'm just gunna play it cool...
be good and set some rules...
being single aint that bad?!
but now i see that being single is just being sad.

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everyday i smile and act like nothing's wrong....
its called putting shit aside and being strong

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Some hearts are broken and mended.
Others are shattered or torn.
Although it was never intended because love is eternally sworn.
I have cried, prayed, and pleaded for that love to hold it’s ground.
Hope was all I needed and pain was all I found.

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I'm gonna smile like nothing is wrong
Talk like everything is perfect,
act like it's just a dream,
and pretend he's not hurting me ..

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I cant get mad at u
4 hurting me
over & over again
bcuz over & over again
i let you

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Do you ever lay in bed hoping that tomorrow you'll wake up in the emergency room & hear the words she's not going to make it? ... I do

i used to be normal.
young and happy.
now all i have is the broken image ..
of the girl i used to be.

wednesday's entry =)

2008-06-11T18:43:00.004+08:00

IF I'M GIVEN A CHANCE TO KILL 5 PEOPLE,
THIS IS WHOM I WOULD DEFINITELY KILL ...
1. his GF
2. his GF
3. Myself
4. my Enemy
5. my Enemy

REASONS:
1 > she stole him from me .
2 > she made him go to her .
3 > ouh, it's obvious why .
4 > i hate her .
5> read the entry on Monday, 9 June .. & you'll noe y .

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well ,
i heard det she got scandal .
u told me det too .

but right now, CAN YOU PLEASE REPLY ME ?
im worried ..
SICK WORRIED !!
i dont noe wat is happening ..
*crying

reply me plz .
reply me plz .
reply me plz .
reply me plz .
reply me plz .
reply me plz .
reply me plz .
reply me plz .
reply me plz .
reply me plz .
reply me plz .

reply ,
reply,
reply,

I'M GOING NUTS !!

pfft !!!

2008-06-09T19:22:00.005+08:00

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PFFFFTT !!

well, at first wen i found out det TIKOS is goin on 13 june ..
my heart felt like it wants to EXPLODE !!!!
WTF ! TIKOS ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
den, dini tried to calm me down ..
well, i did cried .
ppl, WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND !

and what is tis ?
a fucking piece of shit ?!
she made me go lonely at first !
last year, 2007, the whole of the 1st semester .. tell me !
i had NO frens in de WHOLE entire CLASS !!
who did it ?!
well, it's u, TIKOS !!

den on the 2nd semester of de year ..
sha, fifa & yaya went to me .. and u oso ..
u came to me .. WHEN U HAD NO FRIENDS !
obviously sha , fifa & yaya had each other .. but they came to me first so det i wont be deceived by TIKOS.

well, i was friends wit u ..
cox i trusted u by ur SWEET TALKS .
now, i know who is my FRIEND ..

it's been a year since i hadnt been in good terms with u ..
SERVE U RIGHT.
let me say sumtink here. . .

""""""""" der's a time wen i was writing all my best friend's names on my file """"""""
when u asked ,
" name aku tkder "
i said ,
" huh ?! "
u replied ..
" oh, tkder pape "
i said ,
" bilerr mase kau ngan aku best of friends ? "
u said ,
" so selame ni, aku bkn best friend kau "

answer is NO .
i sympathize u sayang ..
too bad ..

see, im no bitch
im just a retard

=)

p.s : this isnt cyber bullying honey . this is called, letting out my feelings .
no harm done .
=)

stupid ! nyahehe

2008-06-06T13:41:00.004+08:00

BLUEK !

wat were we thinking and doin ??
we wanted to burst to LAUGHTER !!!!!!
?? well, no comments ..
my sis .. nyahaha

hmm .. a test !

2008-06-05T14:20:00.002+08:00

Name 20 people you can think of right now.Don't read the questions till you've named the 20 peoples.At the end of this choose 3 peeps to do this :]
1. Anwar
2. Amalina
3. Dini
4. Emma
5. Hidayah E3
6. Steven
7. Ruzaini B
8. Ruziani
9. Sharifah Maziah
10. Hidayah E2
11. My mum
12. My Dad
13. Nana
14. Firdaus B
15. Amir Abg
16. Afri Abg
17. Mama
18. Uncle Johnny ( my step-grandpa )
19. Doreen
20. Nyza
-How did you meet #14?
He's was introduced by my dad.
-What would you do if you hadn't met #1?
It wud be such a waste.
-What if #9 and #20 dated?
Les keperr ? #20 is taken by #1 .. but #9, u have me, #0
-What if #6th and #17th dated?
My fwen n my grandma ?! well, mayb =)
-Describe #3
DAINY !
-Is number #8 attractive?
Attractive to others mayb.
-Decribe #7
Very thoughtful, never gives up on me. GIVE UP ON ME !
-Do you know any of #12's family members?
He's my DAD ! of cuz i would noe ALL of his family members.
-What will you do if #18th confesses that he loves you?
AWWW. i lup u too grandpa.
-What language does #15 speak?
BAHASA melayu & english .
-Who is #9 going out with?
ME !
-How old is #16?
22 .
-When was the last time you spoke to #13?
1 sec ago.
-Who is the favourite singer/band of #2?
Ask her , =)
-Have you ever dated #4?
yerp, lots of tyme.
-Would you ever date #1?
is goin out together wit fwens counted as dating ? i dun tink s0.
-Is #19 single?
She's secretive .. psst, ask her LA !
-What's #10 last name?
Nur Hidayah Bte Jemin ? sorry if wrong.
-Would you ever be in a relationship with #11?
no, but i have relation wit her. MY MUM.
-What's the school of #3?
Woodgrove Secondary School. =)
-Where does #6 live?
Woodlands Ring Road, Dr 65 Blk 600+ .. nyahaha
-What's your favourite thing about #7?
He accompanies me.
-Have you ever seen #2 naked?
let me think .. she's shy.
3 PEEPS TO DO THIS :
Anwar, Amalina, Sharifah Maziah

EMMA ! =)

2008-06-02T23:14:00.004+08:00

wasn't reAdy !
so hardworking
nyahuhuhuhu
wtf. =X

emma edited this !!!!! nice ....
woodgrove spirit .. nyahhahha
our smiles ...............................
like .. wth ! we're in de lib .. ppl tink we SOD
BORING .

Was with emma de WHOLE day ..

so super hyper siao !

met her at 8+ ...

hehe , i overslept aft de whole nite doin sumtink ..

phewwwwww ..

den gave emmama a lolli fer showing that i really appreciate her help in blogging while she's suppose to help me !!

aft det, i treat her.

den we headed to coxwae point.

b4 det we were at vista, den we changed our minds .. decided to go to 'ace de place'

DEN !@!&% !!!

dis person called .

i tot it was my god bro ...................................................

skalikkkkkk ASRYAN !

wala0 .. luckily i nvr call hym abg yet ... his voice so de tough

nyahhehhehhe. BLUEK

den de next thing we noe, he's goin to follow us.

haiiiiiyoooo ....

i really irritated him ALOT. =D

*skip skip skip skip skip skip skip skip skip skip skip*

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den asryan left .. leaving me n emma super hyper sia0 !

FUY0H ! ' ariba ariba '

today, i ended up buyin 1 skinny jeans !! , 2 lovely sesame shirt !! , yaya e3 bdea present !! , my clip !! =) &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& BUBBLE TEA , which i shared wit emma ..

haha. kkayyy ... not funny.

we went all de wae to de old wdlands, the checkpoint..

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LATER .. at home ..

got slapped again !

FUYOH AND CHERRS ON IT !

got grounded ...

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i'll find a way to runaway from home for tis wed and 13 june

dun worri.

1 last thing ...

STAY HAPPY, ppl .

in skewl, curi2 maen blog ..

2008-06-02T09:34:00.002+08:00

currently sneaking
hehe =)
well, sum1 said sorry ..
doin a STUPID powerpoint !
tkderr org pon tlg ..
like WAT THE FUCK

i dono how im goin home later ,
guess i'll take a cab . to play safe .
emma is rite here bside me ...................

oh, ouhk !!!!
haiyo , cher is coming ..
i'll update later.
this is 4 now.

nice 0ne !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-06-01T23:31:00.004+08:00

CONGRATS ON YOU AND NYZA !!!
thank you lotsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss .....

the relationship meant alot to me ......

im sincerely SORRY

2008-05-31T18:23:00.002+08:00

i feel freaking sick ..
fever dropped den went up high ..
nose is running ..
blocked nose ..
hot head ..
cold body ..
shivering hands ..
red eyes ..
and a fucking BAD mouth ..

sincerely, thruthfully, faithfully
SORRY

both us r to be blamed ..
i did it wrong .. n u did too ..
it wasnt meant to make u feel guilty ..
it wasnt meant to vent my anger ..
cox im not angry nor disappointed ..
i feel lonely ..
but not sad ..
i dun tink i feel sad ..
cox sad is not wen i really2 want to nt exist ..
i feel lonely and abandoned ..

der's no one , now , tat i tink , cares ferr me ..
even fer my own family ..
well, love is de most diff thing to find ..
if u want it, den earn it ..
i dun tink i deserve it ..
det's y im not havin it ..

all i need is sum1 to care ..
all i need is just sum1 to care ..
all i need is tat ..
and it's very diff ..

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ALL I NEED IS SOMEONE TO CARE ...

.... it started raining

2008-05-30T21:35:00.002+08:00

Joe called in to say tt i made it into the SL camp ..
yay, i tink ..
unexpected ma ..
the best part is det FaSha wud b der !!
gerek ar ..

den went bowlin ..
ok lar ..
just swing de ball ..
go back n wait ferr de ball to return ..
den swing it again ..
den go back to our seats la ..

den .. it started to rain ..
both the weather and in my heart ..
it rained heavily as if it showed how i was feeling ..
i love wen its raining ..
eventhough it sounds stupid ..
but i tink, wen it rains ..
its like god is on my side, guiding me .

well .. i was abit afraid bout me goin to lose my way back home again ..
i tot of stayin back in skool ..
den he offered to send me back home ..
we ended up sharing an umbrella ..
it's gd det he sent me bck home ..
or else i'll be goin home late ..
cox i'll be lost ..
nta lar ..
byk pikiran ..

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i guess ..
de last chapter is here .
and i finish goin through it .
storybook is finished .
im goin to re-open the storybook .
and continue back on the last chapter det i was unhappy wit .
my family n my life ..

IT STOPPED !

2008-05-29T03:52:00.004+08:00

When we touch..
I feel something happen
When we breathe..
All the world is undone

Stay with me..
As my heart surrenders
Comfort me..
As I fall I cry..
ohh .. ohh

When we sleep..
Darkness brings us release
All you need..
You can find it in me

Stay with me..
As my heart surrenders
Comfort me..
As I fall I cry

[Chorus x5]

Standin' in the rain
Twisted and insane
We, are, holdin' onto nothing
Feelin' every breath
Holdin' no regrets
We're, still, lookin' out for something

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ders no more use of me .. startin dis lyfe, continue-ing dis lyfe & ending dis lyfe ..
live it as it is ............
always wear a mask ...........

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well,
he left ..
everione left ..
living me al0ne ..
in darkness n fear ..
living me in a empty space ..
seriously, i feel like tis is an illusion ..
i wont, i repeat, i WONT be able to trust guys animore ...
let me be ..
i'll strive tis ..
empty handed & alone ..

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YOU'VE BEEN THE ONLY ONE THAT I REALLY LOVE

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2008-05-16T20:03:00.004+08:00

HAHA !! This are the pictures i took from the Temasek Polytechnic ..

nice rite !? haha ...

guess wat !! i saw sumtink tis mornin ..

sumtink det fcukin freaked the hell all of me ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ =O

if wanna noe more .. ask me ..

AND 1 m0re !!!! SH0CKING SHOCKING NEWS ...

here now, Fatin, reportin life from home at 8:23 PM

tis is de msg ..
I WON A SCHOLARSHIP !!!

hehe .. i dun even actually noe wat exactly it is ..

But i noe , i can escape fremm camp fer a while on de 24th may !!

hehe .. den my dad takin me fremm der den .. we go to Raffles Convention Centre ..

goin to a BALLROOM !!

hhahha ..

(k larr)*2

i go n0w !!

hehe

.....................................

2008-05-06T18:52:00.001+08:00

2dae .. took de SCI paper ..
susah nk mampos sial ..
da larr .. per0t ngah saket ..
nt bt0l2 per0t arr .. paham2 jerr

i suddenly remembered sumtink ..
i ask tis guy bout how he kiss a gal .. she said tis
" first i just look at her ..
den our faces get close ..
den ..
den ..
den ..
den ..
den ..
den .. "

den, i finished de sentence ferr hyme ..
"THEN , KISS "
nyahaha ..
ntah lar ..
we're both shy .. =)

THANK YOU !!

2008-05-05T19:43:00.004+08:00

2dae .. is not de most worst dae ferr me ..
but de most .........................................

first .. got to skool .. every1 asked me y my face like tt ..
ntah ehk .. i just kept quiet ..

first paper of MT paper ..
i kept fidgeting ..
it's like cannot consentrate
the pain in de head was so PAIN
i dont noe wat had happened ..
but it all happened fast
..
tears started to drip out of my eyes ..
didnt noe wat happened ..
was in a confusion ..
started to sob for a moment ..
den i went to SLEEP ..
..
haha ..
den de cher woke me up ..
i dont noe seyy ..
kla0 nk katerr det im pregnant ??
NO IM NOT ..
kiss pon tk pernah dpt .. nk maen plak ..
hehe ..
..
second paper of MT paper ..
did everytink smoothly ..
as b4 det sum1 wished me gudluck ..
ye larr .. of cox .. it has to be sum1 special ..
..
den i went to rc pat admiralty park, apteR exam ..
go study2 ..
den guys kaca0 lerr ..
haiz .. guyz .. arent dey tk ta0 malu t0k kaca0 anak dare org .. ?
..
den after a while ..
my m0m called me ..
asking me wer i am ..
everityme i go to a new location, den i must inform my parents ..
lagi2 my dad ..
den i hung up my mom's call ..
den after 2 mins !!!!!!!!!!
MY DAD CALL PLAK !!
cant my life be more worst ????????
den he said ..
"u come back straight on de spot b4 u c wat im gonna do to u"
in my heart ..
aperr .. nk rembat ?? nk sepak ?? nk slap ?? nk BUN0H ??
I DONT GIV A DAMN !!!
..
wen i went back home ..
i got a long lecture and another FUCKIN SLAP ..
so ??
i dont giv a damn to det too ..
..
daddy ..
I LIVE MY LIFE ..
N ..
U LIVE UR LIFE TOO ..
go larr ..
gi maen puki pomapan ..
gi maen bynk2 nk mampoi

AND TO MY MOM !!

HAPPY BURFDAE !!

SEMOGA UMI DIPANJANGKAN UMUR !!

THANK YOU !!

2008-05-05T19:42:00.000+08:00

HEAL IT !!

2008-05-04T19:40:00.000+08:00

notink much to say ..
still havent hear my voice ..
i'll wait till tomorrow to hear it ..

PLZ HEAL DE HOLE ..

................................................

2008-05-03T21:55:00.002+08:00

tis is wat happened ...
now, at 9:55 PM
Anwar anerr ni ?! hehe

k .. im supposed to b de one dets angry .. not her perr
den de wae she msg oso, can show det she's de one who's havin prob wit me ..
not me havin prob wit her ..

This is what we msg-ed each other .. :

She : since u wont reply, i take it as u dont want to fren me any longer .. Fine.. =)

I : seriously .. slalu gini .. im de one who's suppose to b angry .. Now u want to be angry plak .. For wat .. i sat der for 1 long gd hr .. n u went back home .

She : i not angry pe. U ade right to b angry pe. If i didnt vomit that time, i will stay der. so wen u r angry, of cox i cant be wit u pe. Nanti i like tikus.

I: tu ..det shows alr .. ure not angry but .. i dno how to explain .. Slalu u lyke tis, den u say tikos2.

She: coz i always feel like tikus. Seriously. Do i deserve a g0od fren like u wen i always did make u angry.

I: If u keep feelin like her .. Den go b her .. cox u keep tinkin ure like tik0s is makin me go mad.

( den .. she nvr reply me )

I : Wat do u actually want .. I got de feelin det ure de one det wants our friendship to fall apart abit.. Tikos brainwashed u ker ? I dnt believe det my FRIENDS blh caye ngan ckp tik0s

( den .. she still nvr reply )

I : Ape .. it's true hah .. Now ure de prob .. not me .

( she still nvr reply )

I: Ouh, i c .. It's true.

this is wat we msg-ed each other ..

seriously .. dari bacerr tu p0n can tell alr ..

da LARRR

yipppeeee !!

2008-05-03T17:00:00.000+08:00

lets just say i chatted wit hyme for 5 WONDERFUL HOURS !!
hehe ..
chat juz finished .. can imagine him, at home, switchin off his compt, n goin to sleep
i oso wonder ? wats special ?
knaperr ehk i lup hyme ?

i dun noe larr ..

I JUZ LUP HYME

CHATTED FROM 9 plus P.M to 2 A.M in de mornin

UNFINISHED

2008-05-02T18:52:00.000+08:00

THIS ARE DE FOODS I NVR PINNIISSSSH .. HIISH !!

COKE FINISH .. BURGER AND FRIES .. HAIISH

NOW, 6:32 pm ... I just came bck home ..

GUESS WAT ?? im still sayin who ? who ? siape ? siape ?

and i nvr talk to ani0ne since just now .....................................

hmmmmphhh .. y u nvr on9 seyy ?? i want talk to u ..

k tkperr ..

but just a minute talkin to u is enough to make my day bright .. but it turn into total darkness after a while ..

djkashugfshfgvjfhnsgv .. hehe

really .. i dun wan call her rat-a-too-ee

cox at least det mouse cuterr .. dari si tik0s tu ..

eeew !! yuckz to de ass core ..

haha

kk .. otta topic

n im still sayin who ? who ?

im l0nely

2008-05-02T06:07:00.000+08:00

im lonely ..
die da oppline
really .. der's notink to talk about
im just gettin fcukin paranoid ..
seriously
I AM A RETARD

=)

feeliN muCh betteR

2008-05-01T14:42:00.000+08:00

=) feelin much much more better apter talkin wit hyme .
bout ur dream kn .. hehe
u can dream on .. until u do de real tink .
im just waitin PATIENTLY
=D

?? wats happening ?!

2008-05-01T12:01:00.000+08:00

so, 2dae is wednesday, 30th April 08 ..
and det means .. GEOG MYE PAPER
ntah lar ..
i lost 10 marks !!
3 questin, 6marks, 2 marks, 2marks .. question .. NOT DONE !
wat was i tinkin ?
i started wit section B first .. den section C
AND i even had to rush through section A
*skip skip

aft de paper .. we. as a group of 7 + haiqal, we went to coxwae together .
it was like last year .. all de memories
but some spoiled de mood .
we wanted to go n eat at MAC'
but den it's full .. so in de end, we spent 2 hours + , at banquet

apter det , we went to de lib, i cabot from maths tutorial ..
go jalan wit de group .
i give up on maths alr ..
al0t of woodgrovers were at de library ..
SUDDENLY .. D.M came !!
sial arr ..
marah tk tentu pasal .
me and de group tk uat salah perr .

den tyme nk alek .. i took 913 bus
Anwar, i saw u
i tink tt its u .. cox cap samerr
wat were u doiin ?
hidayah, liyana, amalina n others said deyy saw u at cox wae .
i tk nmpk pon

SERIOUSLY .. now
i hav no mood
i feel .. sad, angry, sick, EMPTY, lifeless, hopeless, RANDOM
i dno larrr ..

i dno y i keep complaining .

i dno y i cant live wit it .

i dno y im like tis .

i really dno y .

i wanna noe .

i wannoe y .

i wanna noe y im lyke tis .

u once said .

det if im lyke tis .

den my child would be de same .

now i noe .

im lyke tis .

cox u were like tis .

but now .

i dun feel rite .

i dun sound rite .

i dun do it rite .

i noe, i dun .

y now ?

y now den u wanna admit ?

y her ?

y ..

how bout now ?

how did u do it ?

how did u like it ?

how ..

wer r u ?

wer have u gone to ?

wer is de old u ?

wer ..

wat hav u done ?

wat have u achieve ?

wat r u happy about ?

wat ..

do u like it now ?

do u like us to suffer tis way ?

do u feel proud ?

do u ..

i dno .

tis is wat i feel, if u read de pink words ..

they r words ..

words from my heart ..

n it's not for u guys .. n it not for u too (Anwar)

these r words ..

words det cant be delivered ..

to ..

MY DAD

=)

2008-04-28T13:00:00.000+08:00

im chattin wit hyme !!!
for the second tyme !!!
haizzzz ...
*smiling =)

he's diff ..
pplz might not c it ..
but i do ..
may i alwaes stay in his heart ..
=)

YAY !!

2008-04-24T09:53:00.000+08:00

Everytink is bck per normal .
=)
so happy lyke wanna cry .
haha .

at skool ...
i miss talkin to sharifah !!!
skrng, okayy ready !

den i disturb Mr. Kumar
i go in his 2e3 dnt class n say tt im from his class ..
so from 2.30 to 3.30 i kca0 hyme arr .
haha .
Haiqal oso got kca0 .. skit2 jer .
i really dun wan see TIKOS face.
hmmmph !

IM SORRY !! =(

2008-04-23T11:28:00.000+08:00

URE NOT THE MOST BULLSHIT BF I'VE EVER HAD !!
ure de most special, loving, charming, perfect, understanding HUMAN BEING i've ever met in dis earth .
i dont regret fwending u .. and i dont regret steading wit u ..
ALL I WANT TO DO IS TO BE WIT U .

IM SO SORRY ..
im not myself at de tyme being ..
im so stressed up ..
AND ..
i nid sum1 to be here, comforting me ..
=(

nyahahaha

2008-04-22T06:42:00.000+08:00

sharifah2 ..
haha .
2dae ...hmm
hidayah g0t int0 a fite ..
me .. as usual , BORING !

apteR skool i went t0 cuxwae wit ...
hmm ...
wit wh0 ehk ?
wit SHARIFAH lerr deng ..
weng .. =)
we went t0 buy pen den ICE-KE-SCREAM !!
haha.
den .. sha want to take 913 bus .. die and me punyerr la deng ..
we findin her ez-link ...
ye-e-ley .. in her bag 0ni ..
den de bus juSt went lyke det ... haha
MAMP0S .. terlapas ..
=)
s0 we waited ..

THERE .
+D

wakakakaka

2008-04-20T14:12:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOSH !!
i dun noe tis person ..
he dun noe me ..
YET !!
HE GRABBED MY FCUKIN HAND !!

aand as for parenting seminar !!
FUN !!
i got to see him and my future in-laws ..
weng .. like real
i dont even tink tt i'll get married ..
such a pathetic, physco and pathetic gal ..
haha. i'll laugh if sum1 really wanna marry me ..

kk .. bck to parents seminar ..
tt cher asked me y i nvr fwen tikos ..
i said .. " i choose my own fwens "
den it went on and on and on ......
for wat i want to waste my tyme on such a small piece of crumb ?
lebih baek spent tyme on Anwar den tt person ..
larr .. he nvr on9 .. too bad Fatin ..

bowiin lerr ..
wanna noe more bout wat happened duwiin parent seminar ??
okie ..
ask me on mondae .. i'll tell u wat happen ..
k lar..

siGn 0uTzzz.

?? hehe .. ice-CREAM !

2008-03-22T12:18:00.000+08:00

first .. lina c0mes ..
sec0nd .. hmw ..
third .. ice-cream ..
f0urth .. fed a bird ..
fifth .. it's jux u n me ..

haha .. !! lame sial ..
s0 b0wiin if i really write in det kind 0f p0int f0rm ..
SARANG HEY0 !!
A I SHI TERU !!
CALAKENG !!
TIAM0 !!
W0 AI NI !!
I SAYANG U !!
I L0V U !!

i lup hyme !!
hehe

siGn 0uTzzz.

fcukin TIRED .

2008-03-21T12:52:00.000+08:00

wala0 .. !!
i s0 tireD ..
g0t s0 many hmw plak tu ..
nvm .. t0m0low is ... ??
GD FRIDAE !!

saw de ncc guys .. d0wiin a dance ..
it's called THE HAKA ..
quite funny arr ..
hehe ..
s0wiee .. n0 0ffence . =)

s0 .. rite n0w im sleppy .. but i cant g0 t0 sleep ..
AND ..
i made hyme eat ..
kla0 dierr bt0l2 mkn lar tu ..

i really hav t0 g0 n0w ..
i really cant 0pen my eyes ..
im typin wit hALF-shut eyes ..

siGn 0uTzzz.

we taLkeD !

2008-03-20T10:40:00.000+08:00

umm ..
he came ..
and we talked .
thx emma ..
4 givin privacy .. =)

actually tkderr t0pic s0 ...
we ... al0t 0f silence arr ..
i damn tired sia ..

nvm .. t0m0low last dae 0f de week ..
i nid t0 prepare c0nsent f0rms 4 ..
step-up ..
we're 0rganising de drag0n b0at thingy
f0r all the step-up members ..

STEP-UP ..
is fun ..
it's nt b0ut dancin ..
it's b0ut talkin n
havin ..
FUN !
=)

siGn 0uTzzz

s0wiie .. buT 2dae fun !

2008-03-19T12:36:00.000+08:00

s0wiie deyy ..
hehe ..
yest. i n0t 0nline c0x g0t
L0ADS 0f hmw ..
s0 n0w ..

it's tuesdae !!
hee .. =)
s0 makner nyerr .. hav step-up ..
s0me pers0nal tyme .. i tink ?
yelarr .. pers0nal tyme ..

AND ..
my SL made me ruN !!
haiy0 ..
tyme P.E already g0t 2.4km run ..
den C.O oso niid t0 run ..
SIAN ..
cHaL0 !

siGn 0uTzzz.

umm ... yiipee !

2008-03-17T01:33:00.000+08:00

sp0ke 0n de ph0ne wit hyme agn !
f0r b0ut 2 hrs ehk ??
fr0m 1+ t0 4 ..
hehe

al0t arr ..
t0o many t0pics ..
s0wiie deyy ..
tis just wat i need t0 say f0r 2dae ..

AND .. we sp0ke in de wee hrs 0f de m0rnin ..
=)

siGn 0uTzzz.

yiiiPEEEE >>>> !!!

2008-03-15T23:48:00.000+08:00

erm .. basically,
u n0e det i ..
nvm.

haha .. =)
me and hyme spoke on de phone yesterday .
lyke about 15min gitu .
but im still happy .
=D

we sp0ke at bout 1+ a.m .
yep2 .
0h ya.
The japanese gal went 0ut wit her fwens t0 hab0urfr0nt.
wen she came bck, she got lost .
make me panic, u n0e.
c0x it was alm0st 1 in the m0rnin.
lagik2, h0w can i fetch her, at det tyme .
she called me f0r help.
and i just direct her the way.
luckily she came came h0me safe.

den he called.
baru i sedap hati .
haha.
Amalina, i change already ehk ??
hehe.
i tink mayb.
MUCH CHEERFUL .. =DD

well ..
I L0V HYME !

siGn 0uTzzz.

YeSSa ! =)

2008-03-14T22:15:00.000+08:00

yessa .... !!
=)
u w0uldnt n0e wh0 is hyme .
i zipped my m0uth .

we were den 0fficially together 0n 14 March 08
at 12:40 a.m
haha .. i t0ok de tyme t0o ..
im s0o damn fcukin bl0ody happy !
in a gd waY larr ..

n0w ..
d0wiin .. blog + fwenster ..
Visit me at fwenster larr !!!!
Gip me c0mments !
hehe ..

im fcukin happy ..
but in dis happiness, i muSt n0t 4get det ..
he might leave me de way he left de other gals, t0o ...

S0wiie Fabien ..
=(
i juSt cant b wit u .

JuStan0therDae ..

2008-03-14T11:10:00.000+08:00

N0w ..
currently cleaning up my r0om and h0use ..
All ready 4 Mu Han to stay here =)

Haiy0 .. still have many hmw det i havent finish yet ..
SIAN .
hah .

i really d0nt think he's seri0us b0ut me ..
mayb, mayb n0t. perhaps .. =)

did de Pr0ject. We were supp0se t0 interview the Frail Elderly ..
k .. we were given a gr0up, a bl0ck each .
haha .. 16 st0reys .. WTF .
we appr0ached de a'ma .
at det peri0d of tyme, she wanted t0 0pen her d0or .
wen we appr0ached her, she slammed rite der ..
haha .. Den we remained 0utside her h0use lyke b0ut 10-15 mins ..
hehe

yep2 .. cant talk det much n0w ..
i 0ut 0f t0pic and tyme ..
=)

siGn 0uTzzz.

B0wiin !

2008-03-13T09:25:00.000+08:00

haiy0 .. tis chinese guy .
aru knl smlm ..
abeh nk flirt ..
how can he lyke me det FAST ?!?

n0ppe .. i dun hav a charm ..
but every0ne keep sayin det i hav ..
n dey sae det it a l0t ..
s0 dey cant xplain much ..
=-)
FWENS .. =)

well .. i tink he's angry at me .. ntah ehk .. i 0s0 dun n0e larrx ..
hu ask hyme dunwan t0 lyn me ..
=)

lagi p0n Sufiyan n Fabien ..
is lyn-in me ..
dier jerrr ..
em02 ..

i tink tat he is playin wit my
BL0ODY HEART !

siGn 0uTzzz.

fliRtiN ..

2008-03-12T10:16:00.000+08:00

haha !!!!!!!
s0me0ne is flirting wit me n0w ..
=)

and askiN me t0 g0 0ut 4 a m0vie wit hyme
=D
s0 funny ..
call me his darling s0me m0re ..
haha

we, de step-up members ..
had a great tyme at r0ck climbin jux n0w ..
s0 fun !!
but my leg hurts ..
haiSsH ..

IM gettin fed up 0f lyn-in tis guy ..
he kip askin me 0ut ..
aru jerr knl tadi ..
hmm .. he's g0nna treat me ferR de m0vie ..

ltr ppl tink wat seyy ..
like l0vers lyke det ..
haha ..
=)
k larr .. me wanna g0 ..

chaL0 !!

siGn 0uTzzz.

SICK !

2008-03-11T09:31:00.000+08:00

im s0 fcukin sick
AND
he can still tell me det my dad is very RESP0NSIBLE ??????
AND
says det it's GREAT ?????????

0mG ..
mayb im really nt feRr hyme aft all ...
but
WTF ..
i keep tinkin b0ut hyme lyKe an idi0t .
shut tis t0pic .. talk b0ut wat i did 2dae ..

i went j0ggin wit Lina ..
and ..
det was de m0st Great M0ment 0f my Lyfe .. !
it started t0 rain .. but we didnt care ..
haha ..

we played at vista park aft det ..
=)
it was S0O fun !
i tink with0ut even .. waDever larr ..
haissh ./.\.
it was really fuN ..
we played de 'hamster' thingy .. haha ...
AND
de 0bstacle det g0ess r0und n r0und ..
im s0 lyke g0wiin t0 faint !! =)
it was FUN ..

we were s0aked in wet rain water ..
and
we didnt care ..
we just played .. =)

IM S0 HAPPY !
siGj 0uTzzz.

SUNDAE !

2008-03-10T10:45:00.000+08:00

yep ..
de daes r passing by me ..
FAST ..
=)

Lina came here juSt n0w
s0 i didnt felt det l0nely
wen his dad was usiN his ph0ne ..
=)

yeSh !!
i finisheD my MLY c0mpositi0n, 1 set 0F 10 MLY w0rksheets, Science w0rksheet, Literature & DNT .. !! hehe
im s0 happy seYy ..
IM LEFT WIT .. 1 m0re mly hmw, eng hmw, art hmw & maths hmw ...

haiy0 !!
s0 many hmws' ..
haiSsH ..
the chers' thinks det 1 week 0f h0lidae is lyke 1 m0nth 0f h0lidae !!!!!!!!
SIAN ..

yep2 .. very .
i realy gtg n0w .. wanNa d0 fwenster ..
hehe .
=)

siGn 0uTzzz.

it's SATURDAE !!

2008-03-09T05:35:00.000+08:00

yay !!
hehe .
im cl0sest t his heaRt ..
but im afraid ..
if he'll live me bhinD lykE de wae
he left de 0thEr gals ..
tat's juSt wat is w0rryIn me ..

if he can d0 deT t0 de 0ther gaLs ..
wat caN make me tinK det he'll Nvr d0 deT t0 me ..
haiSsH ..
i d0nn0e laRr ..
Nt SuRe wats NeXt ..
=)

siGn 0uTzzz.

juStb0uTiT..

2008-03-07T20:39:00.000+08:00

yepz ..
hehe ..
we're nt ready ..
b0th 0f us understands det ..
n we act n0rmal in sko0l ..
det's gd ..
was s0 damn near hyme juSt n0w ..
=)

siGn 0uTzzz.

upDate u m0re ..

2008-03-07T14:38:00.000+08:00

yep2 ..
currreNtly bz rite n0w ..
i'll update m0re 0n FridaE !!
im s0 happy ..
dets y !
=)

wed !! yeSh

2008-03-06T13:21:00.000+08:00

i f0und my hp alik .. i s0 damN happy b0ut it ..
c0x .. adrlah .. =)
bustard dis s0me1 .. heard all 0f dem talkin b0ut
hyme .. obvi0usly ..
n laughing ?!
aperr seY .

ct plak c0nfem da memang a !@$@#% b* hah !!
nk ckp s0rri tkm0 uat btl2
nk attitude plak tu ..
mepek arr !!
abey rite .. i tink tat she is really bisu ..
tk ta0 nk ckp sendiri keper ...
=)

WatjUstHappEneD2dae .. =)

2008-03-05T11:58:00.000+08:00

shiT !!
i l0st my fcukiN ph0nE ..
i've really n0 c0mments
n s0 lazy t0 write bl0G wen im feeliN d0wn ..

ARhhh!!
H0W PLAK I WANNA MSG HYME ?!
tis is a fReaKin niGhtMarE !!

sianzzzzzzz ('-')"

2008-03-04T09:14:00.000+08:00

haiiSh ..
i s0 damn tired ..
nopeyyy ..
n0tink interesting happened 2dae ..
pnt GILERR seyy !!!!!

=DD
yupppyyy ..
just got to n0e a guy ..
n he n0es p0ems ..
c0ol ritez >?
c0olissim0 !!
hehe ..

yep2
cHaL0 !!

siGn 0uTzzz.

juSt2dae ..

2008-03-03T12:14:00.000+08:00

yay !! natasha came ..
her hair dame l0ng seyY ..
btw, she's my cutE ad0rablE cuz ..

wen i was otw t0 de 7-11
der's tis bunch 0f guys ..
dey suddenly appr0ach me ..
i t0t dey wanna fight ..

skalik ..
mintak n0.
haha ..
s0 funny ..
g0t al0t hmw det i havent d0ne ..
det g0es t0 Anwar t0o ..
s0 ..
we really gtg n0w
hehe =)

siGn 0uTzzz.

yeP2 ..

2008-03-02T12:23:00.000+08:00

yeSh !! i indeed met Dr. Mohammad Maliki Osman !!
he's s0o cute ..
haha ..
wala0 ..
he M.P lar fatin !!
hehe ..
i n0e2.

0oh aft det i wen t0 cwp n ate at l0ng j0hn wit Mu Han ..
it's c0ol wen bein wit her ..

haiy0 ..
aft det ..
everytink went SIAN !!
really cant talk much n0w ..
bb

siGn 0uTzzz.

tireD !

2008-02-29T18:19:00.000+08:00

k d0ng .. really d0nt wanna sae anitink ..
really am tired ..
n i just came bck at
1:28 AM
hahaks ..
s0wie anwar ..
at least it wasnt det late ..
kk ..

chats .. t0m0low ..
=)

siGn 0uTzzz.

juStfiNe !

2008-02-29T15:42:00.000+08:00

Lyfe ..
It really did ended .
And it left me here .

It's n0t b0ut havin n0 frens c0x i've plenty ..
It's n0t b0ut n0t havin a bf c0x i d0nt tink i currently nid 1 n0w ..

It's just b0ut where my family has g0ne 2 ..
And b0ut where has he g0ne to ..
They just left me ..
Here ..
Al0ne ..

I n0e tt lyfe is very valuable n preci0us ..
But i w0nt regret if i l0se it ..
And 4 sure, i w0nt b l0okin bck ..

L0ve ??
hah .
i d0nt tink i 0wn it n0w ..
im juSt a sick gal ..
Im just standing al0ne in de darkness ..
the darkness tt cant be only 0verc0med by me, al0ne .

yes, i nid t0 speak 0ut ..
i n0e that ..
BUT WHAT !!

Yes, Anwar .. it's n0t wr0ng t0 change gals ..
but think bck ..
U just w0nt understand ..
i d0nt even think ani0ne will ..

I d0nt want any charms !!
I just kip bleeding 0f l0v ..
n0 0ne except f0r hyme understands me de best ..
if ani0ne is willing t0 trade lyfes wit me ..
i'll sign de c0ntract seyY !!
N0 0ne realise h0w hard it is 4 me
0r
H0w deeply i've been hurt

IT'S JUST T0O MUCH 4 ME !!

I just can't take it anim0re ..
i tink im givin up s0on ...

siGn 0uTzzz..

s0rrys'

2008-02-28T07:25:00.000+08:00

im s0 s0wie t0 Anwar n u t0o ..
c0x cant sae det much ..
i hav 7 art assignments to do in a dae !!
CaN u blive tt !!

kk .. paper je larr ..
i really g0t t0 run n0w ..
haiiSh ..

siGn 0uTzzz.

HaiisH ..

2008-02-27T15:18:00.000+08:00

i really cant c0nsentrate in class 2dae ..
i wasnt tinkin b0ut hyme ..
i was in pain .. al0ne . =(

juSt g0t det n it really hurts ..
hav my m0od swings ..
im s0wie t0 all i've d0ne 2dae ..
t0 all my fwens t0o ..

had de Step-Up ..
we played a teamw0rk game ..
kesian Lina ..
she was de 0ne tat's g0wiin t0 b blind ..
den i saw poc0ng ciner .. haha ..
aft det i saw p0cong mly .. he fall 0ff de seat ..
hehe =)

had C.O 2dae ..
i really wasnt in de m0od 2 d0 anitiNk ..
suddenly i did s0mething weirD .
i went t0 msG hyme ..
sayin 'Thx'
den he replied ..
i t0t he c0uldnt reply me .. as he saed he cant

i was really askiN stupid questi0ns ..
i didnt n0e y t0o ..
but i guess ..
i really d0nt wan hyme t0 giv me t0o much h0pe ..
it's 0k t0 giv me h0pes in Life ..
but givin me h0pes det cant b achieved ..
is lettin me keeP tinKin b0ut it ..
n it will n0t happen t0 b in det wae ..

c0x i n0e y ..
n im nt lettin it slip 0ut thr0ugh dis bl0g ..

it's been c0nfirmed !
yah0o !!
de japanese gal will live wit me ..
hehe
beSt nyerr ..
at least i w0nt be tat l0nely n0w ..
at least wen he g0es ive s0me0ne t0 talk t0 at h0me ..
at least dets de best i can d0 wen thinGs r diff n0w ..

all i wan t0 sae is .. ' Im s0wie, Anwar. '

siGn 0uTzzz.

juStdiS ..

2008-02-26T15:10:00.000+08:00

i've de sense 0f sensing hymE ..
OMG
im g0wiin crazy .. =)

at det m0ment i felt det der was g0wiin 2
be s0me0ne 0utside ..
den he came .

tyMe ..
it's s0 fast ..
Maths ..
daMn fast sia !
had 2 peri0ds 0f maths ..
det means an h0ur 0f it ..
i c0uldnt c0nsentrate well ..
keepS tinkin b0ut 0ther stupid stuffs ..

kk .. bck t0 de t0pic .
Well .. i t0t 0nly 15 mins has past,
but den it was 45 mins past
n it will end in de next 15 mins ..

Tyme just past by s0o fast
wen ure tinKin b0ut s0me0ne ..

aft sk0ol 2dae ..
de japanese gal came t0 my h0use
n saw my r0om ..she saes det she lykes
b0th my r0om n h0use ..
der's n0think i lyke here ..

hmmm ..
she saed she's g0nna ask her m0m's 0pini0n first ..
it's 0k .
she can take her tyme ..

am really tired here n really wants t0 g0 f0r a
SLEEP ..
nitex .. =)

siGn 0uTzzz.

0mg!!

2008-02-25T12:46:00.000+08:00

he cnt msg me anim0re !!
nightmare !!
tis is g0in t0 be a nightmare !!
but he sae tt he'll msg me next m0nth ..
nvm
i'll wait f0r him ..
but every sec with0ut hyme ..
is ..
l0nely n unbearable .

i really d0nt understand y ..
i just t0ld hyme tt wen havin a cl0sest fwen
wen bein al0ne
might get u 2 be addicted t0 dem ..

i d0nn0e seyY ..
=)
inn0cent ..

ive al0t 0f pr0bs 2dae ..
i really wanted a fwen ..
but he wasnt der 4 me 2dae ..
n t0mol0w
n de dae aft nxt ..
until next month ..

haiiSh ..
im s0 s0wie t0 my m0m ..
she helped me d0 my art ..
but i stress ..
den i d0n0e ar ..
i just g0 n vandalise it ..
=(

im s0 ank sial !
mayb im really a jinx aft all ..
i feel so useless .. so n0t needed 0n dis earth ..
=(

in de first place wh0 ask my F* dad to hav dis F* child !
im so sway ..
it really sux ..

just remembered s0metin !!
he said tt he dreamt b0ut me last nite ..
n i t0o had a dream b0ut hyme .. last nite t0o ..
c0ol nyerr !!
0ur s0uls met each 0ther last nite ..
hehe
but he w0uld tell me wat de dream is ab0ut ..
guess i w0nt t0o ..
s0methink actually happened ..
n its nt wat 0ther expected ..

im so stressed-up ..
i nid t0 play s0 many r0les ..

My R0les .. :
~ A Granddaughter ~ A Step-Granddaughter
~ A Niece ~ A Step-Daughter
~ A Daughter ~ A Sister
~ A Student ~ A Friend
~ A Close Friend ~ A Special Friend
~ A Lover( s00n en0ugh )

And Imp0rTantLy ..

MYSELF ...

siGn 0uTzzz.

tired ..

2008-02-23T19:11:00.000+08:00

im so tired .
AESTHETIC NIGHT
went g0od !! or rather well !!!

went to republic poly wif yana n ikin .
=)
Rehearsal was der to make us feel tired .
well si t0mb0i keep askin the mc's to talk 0ver agn n agn
po0r ting ..
im inn0cent .. =p

da lar tiring ..
lunch .. umm ..
n0 c0mments ..
hehe ..
learn nt t0 b cerewet ..
but i really d0nt eat vege ..

suddenly, 0ut 0f the c0rner 0f my eye ..
i saw hyme ..
hears the thumping of his b0ots 0n the carpeted fl0or ..
thumping n thumping ..
appr0achin me ..

haha .. lyke suspense story lak ..
hehe
k lar ...
i was runnin t0wards my seni0r skali !!
dier dtg !
haiy0 ..
wr0ng timing !!
i already had my make up on .
n t0tally ..
n0t fabulloso ..
its sacre bleu !! ( french words used . hehe . it means fabulous n OMG . )

n guess wat !
miss thia sang !!!!!!!!
haha ..
actually her v0ice o.k but tkleh tarik ..
kesian seyy ..
kena nyayik lagu breakin free plak tu ..
mr justin sang t0o .. he's s0 cute ..
he sang subahanallah ...
syafiqah didnt n0e det he's islam ..
he's lyke me ..

mrs heikal !! R0X =)
at de end 0f de dae .. s0o pnt !!
msgin wit Anwar ..
sampai k0l 2
n0w waitin f0r his eply ..
tapi tk dpt2 agik ..
mungkin da tid0 k0t ..
tkper lar ..
me 0s0 wanna g0 n0w ..
buhbye ..

siGn 0uTzzz.

juStpeRfeCt !

2008-02-23T09:54:00.000+08:00

this is wat haPpened 2dae ..
AMALINA !!
nvr g0 t0 sk0ol !!
i al0ne seyZ .

si CT plak !!
haiy0 !!
she s0o de ' itik gemb0l2 , ayam terkenet2 '
haha .
i dun care if she reads my bl0g !
lantak arr !

0ops .
i sh0uldnt hav enemies ..
muSt 4ll0w wat Anwar saYs .
=) innocent .

my hair .. tied up in a new fashi0n ..
i lup it wen he l0oks at me ..
i lup it wen he smiles ..
it makes me feEl tt im a special within myself
makes me feEl tat im appreciated
feEls tt de eyes are 0n me alwaes ..

im g0wiin CRAZY ..
haiiSh ..
yay !!
mayb de japanese is g0nna live wit me ,
in my h0use ,
in my rm ,
sleepin n d0in stuff wit me ..

YAHO0 !!

hehe .. =p

i s0o damn happY sia !
canT wait if itS truE ..

im s0wie Anwar ..
i was t0tally nt tinkin b0ut ur feelings .
pliiSh ??

k .. d0ng ..
~ Aiing
hehe .. happy gilerr

currently seatin bside Amalina now ..
she kip sayin ' aduhai ' seyy
ADUHAI ..

yep2 ..
2dea .. W0W !!

s0wie .. if its t0o l0ng , amalina. .
=)

okie d0kie .. buhbye .

siGn 0uTzzz.

t0daer0xmaw0rLd ..

2008-02-22T14:28:00.000+08:00

reached Sk0ol happily ..
hehe .
w0re my new watch ..
=)

0ops ..
4g0t t0 bring my D&T file ..
n was askEd to sketch 0ut my idea ..
n mine ..
was
C0OLIssIm0 !! ( french w0rd .. learnt fr0m a storyb0ok .. =) )

everytink went 0ut
GREAT !!

haha .
g0t my japanese fwen's no.
while dens0n didnt even g0t it ..
Dens0n is Chinese while im a Malay Eurasian .. part of mly .
n det gal t0tally understands chi ..

haha .
wen dens0n talks t0 her ,
she d0ent understand hyme ..
but wen i talk t0 her ..
w0w !
she t0tally understand wat i mean ..
n i c0ol tink .
she invited me to her h0use ..
in JAPAN !!
yay !

hav de chance t0 play wit her d0g .. =)
i mean .. w0w ..
me g0in JAPAN ?!?
i'll b damn crazy !!
hehe .

rehearsal went great just n0w ..
xcept det de conduct0r made a mistake .
it's 0k b0ut det ..

0ops ..
really gtg n0w ..
tc .

siGn 0uTzzz.

c0ntinuiti0n .. (spelling err0r k0t?)

2008-02-21T15:32:00.000+08:00

tis is t0tally wat happened ..
late 4 sk0ol ..
WalkEd as fast as i c0uld ..
ReAched sk0ol ..
peSpiriNg ..
w000oohh ..

s0o pnt ..
suddeNly he taLked uSin i .. u .. i .. u .. n0t .. kau .. aku .. kau .. aku
i realLy th0ught he lieD ..
but he gav a reas0naBle reas0n ..

Reas0n accpted ! =)
seri0usly ..
i hate beIn cheateD 0n .

haiy-0 !!
s0 pnt seyy ...
k d0ng .

siGn 0uTzzz.

justS0otired ..

2008-02-21T09:59:00.000+08:00

haiish !!
im damn tired !
d0nt even n0e wat t0 type .

just n0w hav chinese basic conversati0nal class ..
s0o b0wiin ..
c0x we made s0 much 0f n0ises ..
haha ..

fun jugak arr ..
haiy0 !!
i write in bl0g 0s0 n0 0ne n0es seyy ..
xcept f0r Anwar n Lina ..

Now ..
im currently leaning 0n my chair ..
tinkin wat t0 sae ..

haha ..
went for a l0ng 1 h0ur break juz n0w ..
get bck t0 ya ltr

siGn 0uTzzz .

juStanEmbarrassingdaE .. x(

2008-02-20T12:43:00.000+08:00

i didnt noe wat really happened ..
todae was just s0o ..
EMBARRASSING !!

arr !!
first, durin P.E ..
i totally just freaked 0ut ..
must run interval ..
n de cher gav 2.30 mins for a round ..
n de timing passed by s0o det FAST ..

i was runnin n runnin ..
lamak .. suddenly got class 2E4
haiy0!!
GEREBAK !!

I ALM0ST FALL D0WN ..
haha !! =) x(

in fr0nt of him plak tu
haha

den ltr durin step-up pr0gramme ..
fun arr ..
den interestin 0s0 .
g0t free sh0w seyy ..
hah !
s0meb0dy f0ught ..
usin vulgarities ..
but it was s0 c0ol ..

hehe ..
suker jerr fatin .
den the 'instructer' or 'c0ach'
i donoe arr.
she saed she wanna talk wif me n lina .
n det was s0 .. wen i g0t s0o em0tional ..
i t0tally cried in fr0nt 0f her ..

Lina couldnt blieve .
luckily g0t tissue seyy ,,
haha ..
but i was relieve aft talkin to her 4 a while ..

juSts0UnbelievablE .. !!

siGn 0uTzzz .

WatjUstHappEneD2dae .. =)

2008-02-19T08:59:00.000+08:00

haiish !!
nyer lar bowiin ...
i t0t i c0me bck h0me early, FUN ..
but it s0o b0wiin
haiy0!!

Wat u d0in huh ?!?
haha..
lyke i chattin lyke det ..
hmm ..
no 0ne n0es me s0 i 0nly hav fwen
s0o sad . =(

weng ..
ngah eatin gule2 grape ..
yUm Yum YuMMy !! :p
hahaxSssss ...

h0w can guys msg wen they're playin a sp0rt ??
cam weird gitu ..

s0wiie .. im tryin to talk eng 0nly ..
but as u noe ..
my mly d0es run thr0ugh fingers ..
i d0nt even n0e wat d0es tt mean ..
i just sae 0nly ..

Sk0ol ??
umm...
let me tink ..
it's c0ol !!
g0t 19 1/2 for my ge0g test .. !!
yah0o !!
my class is fabulloso ...

2E2 is de best in ge0g ..
overall 100% passes ..
0nly 1 0r tw0 ppl get A2 ..
N just my luck ,
i g0t A1 ...
haha ..

suke seyy ... =)
i t0t 2dae hav chinese class ..
but d0nt hav ..
cher said 0n wed ..
HaiisH ..

if g0t chinese class ..
2E2 join wif 2E4 ..
c0ol kn ..
hehe

BuhbYe ..
text ya ltr ..
mcm pe jerr ..
=)

siGn 0uTzzz ..

ps: Miss Lam is not buyers ..
If her form class, 2E2,
Gets best in geog for wh0le lvl,
Det really doesnt mean tt she's buyers
We just study hard,
S0 that we d0nt hav t0 write d0wn
De whole textbook

thx 4 ur co-operation

justs0cute

2008-02-18T07:40:00.000+08:00

Currently reportin live from home ..
Seatin bside my adk ..
Scary sia ..
she got high fever still wanna seat bside me
Haiy0 !!

Ask her t0 sleep, she sae cnt sleep ..
haahaa ..
0s0 msg-in Anwar n0w ..
Respect hyme l0ts ..
Diff den 0ther guys ive met b4

but the pr0b is ,
we d0nt talk t0 each 0ther ..
haha
funnie rite .
we 0nly msg 0ne an0ther

Hah! hav 1 msg fr0m hyme n0w .. (3.58 pm)
k .
wen we see each 0ther in sk0ol
u n0e ..
it feels weird ..
lyke we're tw0 diff strangers ..

N u wanna n0e s0metink ..
he just stood for h0w many l0ng secs
until i turn t0 hyme
just t0 ..

SMILE !

haha..
the brightest smile ive ever seen ..
s0 cute ..
so switt larr ..

i bet ani0ne tt is wit hyme n0w ..
w0uld really b the luckiest gal .. (to Anwar tats readin tis: tmo kembang ehk .. hheehhee)

gtg n0w .. buhbye !!

sign 0utzz ...

just0otiredt0sae ..

2008-02-17T09:20:00.000+08:00

heyy .. sowiie 4 nt getting bck yesterdae ..
bz arr .
k let's now just talk bout todae ..
TIRING DAE !!
N0 breaks .. actually aderr ar .
tapi 5 mins jerr .
igt ckp ke perr ..
i dun tink s0o .. but it was FUN t0o ..
abeh saw s0me0ne so0 charac. seyy ..
ask hyme a quest, but he nvr eply bck ..
jeling plak tu ..

Aft rehearsal .. i g0 mkn at l0ng j0hn ..
kenyang seyY ..
JumPe Lina kat lib
den trus alik wif her ..

He's t0tally diff den wat i t0t 0r expected ..
Nt a hyp0crite ..
DefinitelY ..

kk ..
gtg now ..

just0oc0mplicated ... =)

Wat a *F dae !!

2008-02-16T14:10:00.000+08:00

This is totally wat just happened . As im aware tt tis is de first tyme im writin so i dont even noe ani format goin on in here . S0, if there's ani probs wit it .. TELL K !! =)
hehe .
kk . bck to de topic im talkin bout .
Just now in de mornin, totally, it suxs !! science is so damn bowiin .
k, i tink i understand wat i was taught in maths class . confirm !!
aft skewl, tats wen everytink started to go wrong !
i've got my sectin0l practice. n didnt noe tt there's a TEST !!
totally freaked 0ut in der ..
but luckilY, i've got the passin chop on my forehead .. weng :p
hhahha .. just meant tt i passed the test.
we all g0t t0 f0und 0ut tt we've g0tta use the C.O syf c0stume wit blck pants !!
can u blieve tt !! i said 'BLCK PANTS'
im g0nna b a t0tal idi0t if im g0nna really wear tt in skewl ..
i mean .. it suxs sia .
lamak .. !!
my adk want to play compt plak ..
kk ..
ltr i c0me bck ..
muacks ..

juSt t0o c0mpLiCateD ..